They say it doesn't hurt. They say it is over quickly. What if they are wrong. There are so many ways to do it, but what if I change my mind. I just want the pain to stop, I am dying inside. I have thought about it a lot but I am afraid. How will my family feel. What happens next, I am not really sure, then who is. If I go one more day will it get better. I don't know, I only know I want the pain to end. Will someone tell me does it really work, is it worth it. I am dying inside. Please I want to end it, but I am not sure. How do I do it, will I succeed or will I be left worse off than I am now. I am not sure, perhaps one more day and then I will try. I just want the pain to stop, I just want to sleep. I want to stop dying inside.