This was once a Jew’s apartment, here on the Konig Platz. It must have been magnificent, before we were attacked. I squat in an apartment whose glories are all past. The artwork was seized off these walls and the former owner gassed. Now the copper mansard roof leaks nearly every time it rains; It’s my only source of water so I’m not one to complain. My sleep is poor and fitful, as the foe controls the sky. How long can we endure this siege? How many more must die? The noise is indescribable; so many allied planes. We cannot quench the fires; bombs have burst the water mains. Food is hard to come by, that’s been true ever since spring, And it’s gotten worse since Russian troops started tightening the ring. I see old men and boys march out in their tattered Wehrmacht Grey. They are poorly armed, with just Panzerfausts to keep the Reds at bay. In a broken shard of mirror, I glimpse what I’ve become; a scarecrow of a woman; full of fear, no longer young. To the Russians that won’t matter;My flesh still warm to hold. They would take their turns at ****** me while I curse and **** their souls. My husband died at Normandy and I’ve lost our only son. Now all I need to join them is one bullet and a gun.
Berlin, Early April 1945. A middle aged German war widow contemplates her fate.