i've never been one to use capital letters when i write
i feel its too big of a commitment
maybe i have commitment issues
maybe the capital letters are just a small fish in a sea of issues
i think my biggest issue is the fear of living
i believe thats called anxiety
theres not a defined phobia of life
many people are afraid of living
i stay home on friday nights when i should be at a football game
i have this fake personality i pursue at school, home, cheer, etc
but when its 3:49am and i'm all alone, i'm terrified
i want you here  
you're all i need
but the universe is constantly working against me, taking you away
you're happy
im not
whats new
one day
maybe