the most heartbreaking thing of all is that I watched myself fall apart
I looked in the mirror and slowly didn't recognize this sad girl I couldn't find myself the monsters in my head kidnapped me I wanted you to save me so bad
but I felt you forgetting me forgetting us so I stayed kidnapped and slept
you got mad because I needed to get out of bed but when I would say, "I can't" why didn't you understand the cry for help?
even though the pain is in my head doesn't mean it isn't real to me
I see you smiling and singing when I always wanted you to sing to me
and by the time I woke up from the long night of fighting demons you had already left your body remained so you thought with it
I felt like a ***** my boyfriend had his fingers in me and around my neck while I held my head in my hands pleading for the bad thoughts to go away you would hit your head too as if it felt like it was poisoning your life
you made me feel like I was crazy and I think I might be
this is what I've been so afraid of the monsters in my head that kidnapped me
were me
you have never broken my heart, but I can only imagine what it would be like if you did