i miss the feeling i would get when i looked at you under the hazy glow
of a streetlamp
and the darkness of those suburban streets would wrap us together

i miss the feeling i would get when our hands would brush in the warm
air
and our thighs would graze as we sat on the steps of that playground

i miss the silence of the night and the silence of the day when you were still asleep and i would climb the internet to be a part of you

i miss that softness of our lips brushing the first time, and the jealousy
that encompassed me and made me feel like my chest was
caving in

i miss the nervous feeling when i saw you the first time after so long and how nothing had changed and everything had and your hand was still in mine

and of all things
i miss the feeling of being in love with you