i.*
I don't know why
but suddenly
my heart felt like it dropped to the ground
and I don't want to pick it up.
I feel like I want it to stay there,
decompose,
become one with the earth
and let flowers bloom in the hopes of making a new life
that's far better and worthier
than the life I'd be able to live.

ii.
I want it to stay there
and make beautiful things
because I can never-
I destroy everything I touch.

iii.
It makes me want to cry
because that might mean
I'd be gone forever in your life
but little relief comes when I think
that I can say goodbye to you
one
last
time.

iv.
Don't ever think it's your fault, no.
You did nothing but showed me kindness
and gave me hope that things are worth the try.
I'm sorry if I can't keep that spark burning.

v.
Thank you for listening.
Thank you for everything.

vi.
My heart is sinking
and I can't help it swim-
it doesn't want to be saved.