It seems that no matter how much ******* you pump into your body to try and hide the pain it never goes away. The pain learns to adapt- it will find its way through again. You can hide it with scars and bottles and pills but it will always find it's way through it will hurt much worse when it does because it's mad you tried to **** it. The only way to **** it is get to know it- it strives off ambiguity and lives on your tragedy don't let it fester. Get to know yourself, it's the only way to rid of the pain. If you end yourself it wins. I'm trying not to let it win.