hey, mom
it's been a while, hasn't it
yeah, i been meaning to call
but my phones barred
and i kinda like it that way

i know
its a shame we aren't closer
but the truth is
physical proximity
was never our strong point

you watched me grow
from afar
hoping that i would amount
to more than
the shell of a man
i am
today.

you let me make
decisions i didn't have,
no - couldn't have had
the foresight for.

i don't regret you
sending me to boarding
school
i regret not having
that time with you

even now,
as i attempt
to be my own man
i still wish you
lived closer than
the twenty two
hour flight i cant
afford.

it was tough enough
without papa around
and i know David tries
hard, means well but
he cant replace
the childhood i didn't have
with my dad

how long till
the delayed voice
on the other end
becomes but a voice