What is this?
When did I
Get so emotional
But also detached
When did all this noise
Become so loud
That it changed into a
Deafening silence
My heart stopped beating
A long, long time ago
But I still live
And blood still courses through my veins
It’s the feeling of
Everything
It’s the feeling of
Nothing
It hurts
And it hurts so badly
But I am still unsure
On what exactly is giving me this pain
Have I lost my mind
Or did I find it a while ago
Maybe this sadness was birthed
From finally seeing reality
This darkness is so black
It becomes bright in the day
I thought I knew myself
I thought I was cold
But this is a new freeze
This is a new chill
This is a new black
This is a new low