Where am I !
I am not here!
This can not be Real!
This nightmare!  
will it all go away
when will it be
okay for me?
I am so afraid
I am so afraid
I am all alone.
Really .
Literally alone
here in this room,
what is it with me
why can't I just be ,
I want to forget
everything
I think I loved to hard,
remained to loyal ,
wanted to repent,
I've been like this my whole life,
never being able
to be close
to anyone
or anything,
people
have this way
to hate me .
I wander why ,
My whole life,
sometimes i feel that i deserve it
sometimes i feel that the whole world is against me
so i boost my ego up
I've become accostumed to the hate.
they hated me
for being poor,
they hated me for being liked,
they hated me for being me,
they hated me all the time ,
they hated me when I was up
they hated me when I was down,
they loved me for a time,
they hate me for being me
they hate me for being me
they hate me
so that it's becomes a part of me
How do I do away
with something that won't go away
How do I take it back
How do I say
so I have learned
How do I forget