＊The cold dreadful nights.
without the cover of warmth and love and affection,
which was denied by those who crossed her off the list.
＊The days of her struggle under the brightest sun just above the sea ******* up her soul and leading her the path of entropy.
＊The days when she faced rejections, denials and in-acceptance  by the people who she pretended to be the light after the deep dark tunnels she went through.
＊The times when she was standing all alone, being crushed by the walls of miseries and wrote endlessly about them out of frustration.

She has been through everything...
The times when she was hurt, the times when she was broke.