and it's not just you, or everything that you do, it's not that i'm never high, or that i don't appreciate drops of sunlight on cold days, but every step is fighting an earthquake and i'm struggling to stay on my feet and it's too much to ask if i want to take a breath while i'm in (anyone's) space
it's not that I can't be happy, it's that I can't *stay* happy and I don't know how to fix that.