Old women eat curb-side blackberries honeyed with dust and car exhaust. They are stained with berries... black birth marks.
They are never satiated.
They dare the dragonflies of metal for the taste of juices provided by a generous God. Ground-fall pears are ambrosia to old women who go to bed hungry. Full bellies are a vague sizzle of memory.
Old women walk the earth dropping bread crumbs to lead the next Old Mother who needs to find her way..
A whiskey bottle thrown from the freeway grazes the temple, to explode into granular road-sugar. She picks stray pieces of amber from her hair... just as delicately as she plucked berries from their hairy, clawed vines.
Old women pray for darkness so they can lie down, swaddled in cardboard, wrapped in blankets of denial.
Old Women never surrender. They endure. Old women endure.
When my husband went to jail - leaving me alone...I wandered and existed on blackberries and ground fall pears. I was totally stupid about life...innocent and lost...lost my mind. Now I encourage women to know abusers and leave them - and STAY GONE.