These words are long overdue But each time I sit before the screen It seems too impersonal A keyboard is incapable Of showing how my hands shake This paper holds the tears I shed though
All of the late nights I spend praying for sleep I am unable to because I know Miles away you lay on your floor Music pulsing At the same tempo As the blood that flows freely
How am I to sleep When I know you stare at the same night sky I feel you lie awake Making me unable to close my eyes
But when I think of this Tears threaten to overflow I no longer can pick up my phone To see if you are truly awake
Sometimes I hope you think of me often But I don’t want you to feel this pain I have lost my tether to reality that was you And no matter how you feel now I know you lost the one Who knew you the best
How have you been Dear?
I wish I could have called you last night My mind was slipping And the walls were closing in But I couldn’t call you I had to fall asleep on a tear soaked pillow Trembling in fear
Thinking of what you would have said Has stopped helping Now I think of your tired voice Telling me it will all be okay Makes my throat close And my head spin
It’s scary to think of How things change Who do you talk to now? Who has taken my place? Do you love them Like you loved me? Do your fingers hover over my number late at night? Can you feel that I need your strength?
Has it crossed your mind That I’m scared to let someone else in? Once I recover From the constant shock That I can no longer call you My fingers rest calmly above someone else’s number But my heart races If I let them in That means you will never come back I already know you won’t But letting them see All that you have seen Will finalize it I’m not sure I’m ready for that yet
But I know I need A new tether to reality ‘Cause freefalling Isn’t healthy
These words are long overdue but these aren't them. </3