Triggers everywhere,
reminding me of you,
of me,
of everything we had.
The trigger's pulled,
the flashbacks go boom, boom.
Killing me,
relentlessly.
Tearing me apart inside,
but on the outside, I look fine.
My mind plays a heartless game,
I can't take much more,
I wish I could just die.
Breathing fast,
heart racing.
Look around the room.
Hold it together, it'll pass.
But soon that rationale is gone,
I'm dying.
Full on panic, fight or flight gone wrong.
Just wanna curl up in a ball, cry, die.
I just can't take it anymore, you're everywhere.
The smallest things bring it back,
make me wanna quit,
give up on the little bit I have left, that little bit of life.
I'm going insane cause of the pain,
I cry out,
no one's listening,
I'm screaming now,
why can't anybody hear me?
It's like I'm drowning, while watching everyone else breathe.
I put the trigger to my head, and pull.
Boom, boom.
And this time, there’s beautiful silence.