I promised I'd give writing a go again
so here I am

restlessly searching through
everything I've ever known
begging for something to write about

I've been happy lately I think

well I haven't wanted to self harm
well I have been eating
well I haven't cried much

crying rather

crying because I want things I can't have
crying because of music I love dearly
crying because I miss you

you are who made me like this