This is true. I don't trust people. I have been lied to and betrayed so much that I exhaust myself into being one step ahead of everybody just to keep myself from getting hurt. Every conversation, every action gets analyzed like an insect in a **** lab when it comes to being around people. With a person as sensitive as me, it is very easy to fall for someone's lies. It's like a crime scene, my wounded heart is the ****** crime scene and anyone who even dares to love me or show me any kind of positive attention is a suspect until proven innocent. Sometimes proving to myself that not everyone is the devil in disguise takes a very long time and I promise you it is exhausting in every way possible.