An old friend turning toxic, I dream of ejecting her from this blissful vessel. The black muck when she speaks now splattered stains on your newly ironed dress shirt. Moss melting the creases in her teeth: the decorated corridor for her thoughts now a putrid swamp that once made you smile. Brittle lashes, cracking and crumbling from icky cosmetics I always despised. A crust forming on the electric blue eyeshadow congealing her psychotic stare that leaves me optimistic for her slumber. But even when in seemingly peaceful sleep, she is screaming in my dreams. Indigo veins as floss plucking at her gums, crimson dripping down her lips and off her chin. Her freckles denting her cheeks: sickly chicken pox amidst the blackheads. A scraggly witches broom pressed into her scalp where her hair would be. It fits her well. Her hands hot with hatred, concealing a secret only she could know. She is irreversible. Her toxicity taking ahold of me: an irrepressible poison to my past, fogging my future. But she is not what you know. You are blinded by this auto-pilot, and she steers me into the earth. Every day, each minute, always breathing, in my dreams, she is the me that you will never see. And as horrid as she is, and as fearful as I am, I pray she will return to me someday.