that night
was

a place
adjacent

a shrine

thrummed totem rising
OOOoohhhmm-ing busting sifting
the hard
the oh-so *******
-hard-
mineral
that sits proud beneath my breast
always taking
deflecting

now
taken in
felt

carbon lattice wilt
this will pass

i've been

cared
for

her touch
friend love soul tall all pure
orbit of Oneness arcs above us

my chest

outside my self
reaching out of me
out of my grasp
wanting to be
more toward
the Other

my feat
inside the floor
where the beat is found

the hardness slips

for the first time
i wished to be human
and was

sliver in the diamond
shook loose
the sting of ME
wanting
transgressing
now outside me
the ugly is mine to hold
to observe

it killed me

i died last night
and
from that baseline goop
rose toes first
white-hot light dripping
from starburned furnace melt