1) you're going to need to know how to stop slurring and how to walk straight. be able to say the alphabet backwards when you're even close to unconsciousness, know when to stop ******* driving. 2) sleep will be either the most evasive or clinging lover. when you are awake for six days, write. when you are about to sleep for two, make sure you are on your side. 3) when the money is gone, you need to learn how to leave your body when they enter it. eventually you won't be able to feel a thing. but know that when you're sober she touches you a year later, you won't be able to feel it. 4) ******* won't be as good as getting high. don't feel like a genius when you wake up and have that idea. 5) your lovers and friends will all be addicted. drugs will become the only **** or interesting thing to you. years later, you'll still crave the taste of opiates on her tongue. 6) some of them will die. you won't be able to cry. 7) instead, you will be completely numb for weeks and you won't be able to tell the difference between the dope and the pain. 8) the dope will eventually become the pain. 9) it will never **** the pain. 10) lose all self respect now. lose all timidness. 11) don't forget you will lose all freedom in your search for it.