Why do I feel so confused?
Why must everything be so complicated?
....I feel lost in nothing, yet lost.
Lost FOR nothing.
I just want another night,
another chance to not blow it.
I want to be the girl of his dreams.
I want to be the best me for him, for me.

God what is wrong with me?
Why did you make me this way?
What is it that you want to be for me in this situation that you couldn't in another?
I want to see,
I want to open my eyes,
my mind.
I'm not gonna give up,
on me.
God please show me what it is you want me to be opened up to.

Help me be happy God I want to be happy.