I don't know what to think
I don't know what to say
I don't know how to feel
I'm upset that you went away.
You died without any warning
I didn't even get to say goodbye
I feel so much guilt over the fight we had
now all I do is cry
I was supposed to go first
my ashes belong around your neck
here I sit holding your ashes
and I just want you back.
All the memories I have of you
I can't make disappear
I walk the streets we used to run
and I wish on the stars that you were still here.
What do I do know?
Where do I go from here?
You were my source of confidence
without you all I have is fear.
How do I live without you?
How do I sleep without the beating of your heart?
How do I get over your death
when I can't stop falling apart?