I can't say that I don't love you
because that would be a lie
I can't pretend that I'm happy
when I really want to cry
I can't be something that I'm not
because that's living a lie
I feel like life is hard
but I got to give it a try
I feel myself breaking down whenever I think of you
but I can't let you go despite the bad that you do
I feel like giving up and letting the world win
but no matter how hard I fall I can never give in
I can't say I'm ugly
I know that I'm not
I can't say I'm cold
when really I'm hot
I can't forgive someone
only to still hold a grudge
I have to let go of the hate
in order to accept love
I have to be independent
I have to trust myself
if I can't rely on me
how can I trust anyone else
I have to feel pain in order to understand
I can't seem to feel complete
with his ring on my hand
I have to cry
as a way to let the pain out
I have to believe in myself
and not have any doubts
I have to make the best of everything
and know that God is on my side
I have to be honest with everything I do
because no matter what
I will get caught in my lies.