Remember Christ is Faithful , remember he is Good.
Obedience is easy once you begin to see the real Truth.
What I mean is sometimes our mind sees something.
Believing that it is the truth , because it was how you perceive it.
But years later Christ opens your mind to the truth.
Your whole world was change and twisted by those lies.
Like seeing that people  rejected you , but it was not true.
They love you, but the evil one fed you only twisted lies.
So you then start going through a h3ll , that was made up.
So whatever you do, don't believe everything your mind speaks as truth.