I woke up to bear leaves I asked myself, where has the time gone?
I fell asleep to dinner conversations and thought when did everyone get this old?
I walked into the classroom and wondered when did we stop talking?
I looked into my brothers room staring at his old toy trucks and said we used to play with these..
I looked up at the tree we used to climb in the front of my house and I swear it used to be so much bigger I could've sworn
I lost that old swing set. The one with the monkey bars we'd hang upside down from and make silly faces on
And where did the neighbors of countless pbj sandwiches on plastic spongebob plates move? That boy and the girl, Russian family. The girl would only leave when she cried home for a band-aid.
I looked back at the amusement park pictures from 07; we used to go there and the strangers always seemed so happy It used to be a magical night that ended in a dripping cone of ice cream and laughter or was it just a $4.00 cone?
I looked up as the band played their last song and realized this concert will soon end and I could rarely remember what I had just experienced After a couple days, It seemed this concert will only be small flashbacks and was just another night deriving from a 30 second video I took of my favorite song as I continued to smile and cheer with delight as the crowd lifted their hands in the air because I genuinely was happy, but I can still only remember that last act that 30 second, small screened, iphone video of a last act
Then I think back to the bear leaves. I did watch them, As I waited for the bus, each day, grow more bare. It was always happening, just didn't seem as slow as it really was
Time will do its thing and so will I, paying close attention to what I tell myself I am doing and what I have done but the space between us; me and time from the present to the past are the memories that I want back
Let me relive them the way I had preserved them on their shelf Just as they used to seem from when I was young The ones that won't disappear and leave to make me feel so empty. I can only look, not take them down I want to remember them like I had never grown.
This felt oddly placed and oddly written yet at the same time felt kinda at home..