I never really imagined what an impact you would have on my life. Of course, I knew that you had to have some sort of impact seeing as we spent so much time together, but.. for some reason i always thought it would be positive and not negative.

You ****** me up completely.

You distorted my views on love without ever loving me. I loved you with all that I had, and you couldn't make up your mind about what you wanted: me or someone else. You couldn't decide if I was worth it. If I was worth your time, your feelings, your affection. You constantly flip-flopped in what I meant to you.

You made me feel worthless and worth it all, all at the some time.

Maybe you simply didn't know what you wanted. Maybe you were just too young, too naive to know.

But I knew. I knew then and  I sure as hell know now.

Perhaps it wasn't all bad, because now I know what I deserve. Despite walking through hell for you, you showed me that I deserve the world.

No one is ever for sure when it comes to love, but I know without a doubt that I would have gone anywhere to be with you. Maybe - hopefully - one day those feelings will fade.

I pray that one day I forget all about you.