I refuse to be dragged in
the dark again. To let my
mother pick on me. Listen
to the trash words being
thrown at me again. I want
to take a stand. Pack my
bags and leave. Never look
back again. Dissolve in the
sky or sleep by the sea shore
at night. Go over to my lovers
home and stay . I'd taste
the devils tears as long as
that'll help me go far from
home. Never spoke a word
about the battles i have going
in my head to her. Never told her about my first poem or what
gives me an adrenaline rush.
Never told her about the words
that make me blush. Or why
did I major in accounting or
anything that has caused me
pain. Never told her about my
plans of wanting to disappear
and die.
They say no hugs are warmer
than a mothers hug.
But they lied. I didn't know it'll
feel so cruel and cold. They
said every daughter has a
special bond with her mom
too but they lied just like they
always do. I kept my secrets
under my skin and never spoke
about them but with him. I dream
of the day where i'll graduate
and move out of this place.
It feels like winter all day. The
walls of my room are like prison
cells they never saw the meaning
of love. They never saw happy
moments , laughter nor painted colours on the ceiling above.
They saw tears roll silently on my cheek. They've only seen my
petals wilt slowly and fall as the
years passed by. They only saw my colours fade away into the black
and grey. I need out of this place
and into my soulmates arms. I
need to go somewhere far
away from home* ~