i am the tornado kind of
misery, thrashing ocean rage
and the wrath of the shrieking
skies
bleeding into sadness
when you catch raindrops
in shaking little palms you hide
back in your pockets because i'm too
scared to hold your hand

you can't bundle me into
your arms and shelter me
from the winter you see outside shattered
windowpanes and creaking haunted
doors
of rooms you lock the madness within
because the madness is inside
there is a clawing in my blood
and darling
it's not singing for your love

it's not singing at all
where is this melody you hear
whenever you want me in your arms
?
what is your heart humming along to
when all i hear is

rain
and oceans and thunderstorms
and hurricanes
can you hear me
my heart?

it's the quiet underneath
it all