there is something tapping the inside of my skull i feel like I'm about to bawl i don't know what to do i feel like god has given up on me like this kid is too ****** up to be saved I'm brave but I'm a slave to my thoughts there eating me away so are my insecurities they will be the death of me i don't eat i don't sleep at night because I'm always in a fight with myself  I'm screaming but yet theres no sound only a ringing in my ears I'm on the verge of tears living is my greatest fear