I've been out of my skin the past few days
it's uncomfortable being lost
one minute you know exactly who you are
the next you completely forgot
you don't forget little things either
it's everything
you get so angry you blow up
then afterwards it's hard to get back to reality
I'm so tired I feel dead
like a zombie living my life
if I lay down for even a second
I drift to sleep into another life
that's when my conscious comes alive
every word I've held back is said
and every action I play in my mind is done
people's feelings are hurt and they cry
but I don't give a **** anymore
This goes on for hours until I wake up
every dream I had seems real
I try to remember all that has happened
but it's hard when you can't feel
These episodes leave me heartless
it takes days to recover from them
they leave me so numb
I just wish I could be rid of them.