Waiting for the weekend is not longer an option Anticipating a pay cheque is no longer just waiting to go shopping The freedom that comes along with sobriety is no longer an option
Sobriety has never been my strong suit nor something I am ready to achieve
Lines and parachutes are the ropes that hold me together But they are also pulling me apart
It's Tuesday morning and I arrive at school with my sunglasses on feeling both nothing and everything at once Overwhelmed with the fear of being found out but at the same time afraid no one will find out The damage I've done and continue doing can be stopped But not without my minds consent and my nervous systems support Both are severely lacking and attacking what little I do have left
Getting high on the weekend at parties used to be fun Now I can barely feel the high even after several pills and lines
Sobriety is a group effort and not all the parts of my mind are open to the idea