i am a wild, tearing black hole without you
stumbling over words
listlessly letting the ceiling absorb me.

with you i am whole,
but so full of hate
that i feel it rising up
springing from my tongue
filling in my eyes
blackening my cheeks.

there is no win-win for me.
destruction and burning agony either way.
i do not understand
why i need you so...
you who ***** so much more
than just my body.