because this strategy of lighting myself on fire to get your attention resulted in varying amounts of burns all over my body. i theorized that maybe, if you stared at the sun, then you would go blind to my deformities. witches like me wouldn't have to be burned at the stake for your comfort. maybe instead of me, you would jump head first into the fire and take a few polaroids of what hell looks like for me and pin it up on your wall next to the picture of us. make a collage of things that are dead and use those few polaroids, and maybe you'll understand.