a sad set of eyes scrutinize me
watch my self neglect
remembering our times together
trying too hard to forget.
I lay by his warm body
his arms hold me, unfamiliar
we kiss, I do not love him
we make love, I do not know him.
sometimes I yearn for your familiarity
but I know I can never return
your strong arms cannot hold me
your gaze cannot see me.
you do not understand
I cannot explain.