I wish I could hold him
without wanting to cry
and accept a compliment
without hearing a lie
I wish I could be with him
without fearing what I'd do
when I became another sad girl
who didn't know the truth
I wish I could kiss him
and give him what he needs
and tell him that my mind goes calm
when I hear him hum and breathe
I wish I wasn't so **** terrified
of feeling his love end
but most of all, I wish it started
before I drew the line at 'friend'