Smokey leaved insides Green lipstick from the night before I asked the bartender: "Am I terrifying?" But heres the safe restroom A moment of seeing the sun hitting the windows The fur coat I always wore Lana Del Rey on repeat I really thought, I think That I did want it to be you?
The last time we drank ****** marys All my material items, take them Take them from me A contentment, a sense of adventure A knowing and feeling that you were right there A relaxation I thought I could feel But I glitch and we glitch And I glitch through the line.
"I'm done. I'm so over it." But I do, I admit I cycle and recycle Hoping for the real one Hoping for the right one But I don't wanna give up My play time. Lets be children on the playground Together Someday, whoever--wherever you are out there My perhaps prince.
Lifting tables, piles of clothes Take it all as I try to remember how to Be mathematic, no--I really don't need You to tell me in a positive stern way That it wasn't "a waste." No, it wasn't a waste But you never danced into the night alone You never dealt with saying "I'm an actress" As men accused you of acting, acting all the time You never knew REALLY knew How that empty seat Whistles and coos your name.
How could you? How could I? So I say a hundred and million more times-- I could **** myself over it, or I could be strong about it Sarcasm and death, sarcasm and all the Chocolate peanut butter ice cream I wish I could drench my face in.
Long Eyelashes showed up unannounced His blue eyes twinkling and gazing into mine Take the mirror, take the board May little reminders of me float through your life Like pixie dust fresh from the moon I hope I am always moon droplets Everywhere I left my mark.
Kissing and longing Whimpering, but body so tired Anxiety and leg hurting Can't go out and eat the night Tonight Hair in wet loops Apartment covered in today and transition I tell my mother: "I think I need to see a therapist."
BEAT. "You are just stressed." Yep. You are right. I ******' am man. But I look next to me I long for the past in moments For sushi nights, hustling down Spruce A fresh new boy, a movie it felt so freeing to make The avoidance and heartbreak, recovering Recovering recovering recovering recovering recovering recovering. That will be $ That will be $
But I I drape my long lean strong legs Over the empty seat.