Forced offline, I lay in thought,
The hardest things, leaving you distraught.
I would stall if I could, stall if I might,
I would give it all to have you in sight.
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My parents know, they see it all,
They lay in worry, for how far I might fall.
I guess you never really know quite what to say,
You do all you can to keep the darkness at bay.
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You're ****** if you do, ****** if you don't,
I shan't tell you a lie, I promised I won't.
I need you to realise that this is no good,
No matter what, if I could be there I would.
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In my mother, who lay sleepless in worry,
We both know we won't sleep in a hurry.
Don't worry for me, this is who I am,
I know I can't save the day as if I'm fireman Sam.
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I'm not broken nor depressed, I am simply upset,
The last thing I need is for others to fret.
Know deep down I am still that same boy,
He's just having trouble expressing his joy...
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I can fill up this page, fill it with meaningless words,
Watch as my mind, flies away with the birds.
I am fine, truly. I'll make it through this all,
Whether we finish together...guess that isn't my call.
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Know that I am conflicted and torn,
Such things don't change at the start of each dawn.
I'll endeavour to sort myself out in time,
Perhaps stop crying like I've committed some hideous crime.