we are awake,
you and i.
we are awake, together.
we sit in silence,
by the light of a turtle,
mulling over what is to come.
i believe i have carried life inside me,
i could not sustain it,
and it faded away quietly.
what would i have done,
had it lived in me?
am i heartbroken or safe?
you wrap me in you,
like an old quilt,
the safest place i can be.
i will not have as they will,
but they will not have as i do.
i will not search for love.
i will never know desperation for company,
struggle for love or companionship.
i have you.