we are awake,
you and i.
we are awake, together.

we sit in silence,
by the light of a turtle,
mulling over what is to come.

i believe i have carried life inside me,
i could not sustain it,
and it faded away quietly.

what would i have done,
had it lived in me?
am i heartbroken or safe?

you wrap me in you,
like an old quilt,
the  safest place i can be.

i will not have as they will,
but they will not have as i do.
i will not search for love.

i will never know desperation for company,
struggle for love or companionship.
i     have     you.