The whitening lightening The appearance of ghosts Are to me not frightening Just thoughts though they last Those pieces of the past The stones I have cast In the oceans of time. When we all wore that sign that said beware Those who go there dare look into the fires of hell And with the coins of their souls sell their life as well they might. My nightmares in the night remind me of darker days When I became those ways Those stygian deeds and the wasting seeds of minutes that tick When I being sick of the sight of me. Took a hammer, Busted my knees, my feet my face. I had to get out of that place So I howled at the moon hoping that soon The pain would quicken make I sicken for something good. Would that it could but it did not, And what have I got? Broken bones busted face ghosts laughing back at my place. I can't escape I'm locked into my fate Imprisoned by yesterday and so I lay on my pillow And weep like a willow. Sinking in my tears ******* on my fears. And those that were near are so far away. Removed from this Earth to a spiritual rebirth. But It dont help me Because what can I see? The widening chasm The spastic ****** The inevitable starvation I can't see my salvation in here or in there But what the hell do I care I'll go back in the trap and that will be that. But. I know there's a key That will set me free First I have to find the lock I have to be a rock Take the sand from my eyes wake up and realise If I don't do it now Then It's Adios John Kapow. The lights go out the clocks don't chime But then I will mime in some other place Far removed from this race On a seat beside those who went before When life was spent in laughter and song. Now I know why I long To jump in the lake partake of the death after life That life after death The stuttering breath that cleanses the brain But it's all the same just a different phase Like some mist in the haze when my head's in a daze. It seemed I swallowed the sun and it stopped all the fun Then It smashed all my hopes and put me down on the ropes. It cannot be denied that I have defied Some obscure deity with my contrived gaiety. But now I'm back in the zone I want to go home I feel so alone In the midst of a crowd I want to shout loud Give me a hug all they do is shrug And say another mad druggie looking for a huggie. I say kiss my *** because you're not in my class. Yet again I don't care Because I'm no longer there I'm in the whitening lightening and the ghosts in my flat Go rat a tat tat as they knock on my door Kick me down to the floor till I beg them desist They know that I missed Them all. They are my friends until my life ends Until I'm with them forever in the day that is never Night.