you didn't know how many times I cried, how many times I woke up in the middle of the ******* night begging for you forgive me, or how up until you found out I couldn't let myself love you fully because I knew I didnt deserve any love back. You're right, what I did was awful. What I thought about doing was awful, and oh the things I said were awful. I didn't cry? I didn't cry from the pain I had caused? You're delusional, truly, you are. Something you'll never realize is that I will carry that burden for the rest of my life, because I hurt the one person I loved more than anything in the world. And that is what makes you and I different from each other.