If I could freeze a moment in time, May it be the moment I lost him. The frame where his love and lust turned to dust Faster than a shooting star, And more painful than realizing for the first time That wishes do not come true. So I can study the look of his face When his façade fades, And anger becomes all too real. So when my therapist asks how I am, I will be able to see the face, his face, Of unforgiving, furious forlorn In the ink bruises blotched on the card. Funny that my first word was “ink” And my first love was the face frowning in the flecks of it. Freeze the frame I lost him For, then I will not fall for it in the future Trying to stitch someone together So they can simply snip the ties That once held me in one piece. And maybe the reason hugs feel right Is because each is a thread Building stronger, binding my lost pieces tight, Back to where they belong on my body. Freeze the frame I lost him So he will stand beside me once more Before I forget how his hands felt Around my waist. Because I only feel the burn of them Around my throat, Stealing my breath away A different style than before.
Freeze the frame I lost him Until I realize that I did not lose him- He lost me.