Sad, distroyed, upset I am Pain, memories are getting stronger than they were Monsters, demons are coming alive once again Oh no... Here goes to the past I once lived in...
I'm thinking bad thoughts Thoughts about hurting my self like I did in the past Great... It's starting I'm in pain crying I need help! I'm taking to many steps back!
I want to feel the blood dripping down my arm as I scream and holler in pain! I want to tear my skin apart and start new scars that would appear once again! STOP! I want to start making myself throw up like I did in the past Not to make me skinny, but for the pain it gives me when I'm too under weight! Please stop... I want to do something dangerous that would put me in the hospital for months! Please don't say it...please stop... I want to die! Please by anything at all! I want my body all ****** and my guts to be everywhere, but it has to be a painful death! (Crying)
I want the pain to come alive again because I deserve it... I DESERVE IT!