I will struggle for a very long time. I will hold on to him, hoping that in time my love for him will make him see.
My friends will probably tell me to break up, and I will know they are right. Which is why I will struggle. Because the mind and heart cannot come to an agreement.
My advice for you will be to think through properly. Ultimately, we are talking about your future, your marriage. You may now be together, but who's to say what will happen in the future.
Will you be crying every night as a man you love sleeps silently, distance so close but yet you have never felt so far away from him?
Take your time to decide. Whether you choose to continue with this relationship, or realise it's time to put it all to a stop. Make your decision, and don't look back on it.
Doesn't matter how long you need to take though the longer you withhold your decision, the heavier the burden and struggles get.
No matter what you choose, no one can fault you. And neither should you fault yourself. We are all entitled to our choices in life, be it good or bad. It is our life.
I will support you in your decision, and I believe so will your parents. You're never alone, you're very well-loved.