No more lies
I think I should tell the truth.

For every time you've asked if I'm okay
I'm not even though I say I am.

For every time you've asked if I need a helping hand
I do more then ever even though I try to push you all away.

For every time you've offered your shoulder
Is it still available I'm close to tears.

For every time you tell me you're scared when I cut
I lied, told you I had stopped,
I haven't and I'm scared too.

For every time you asked if I still want to die
I've told you no to keep you from worrying
But honestly the urges are stronger everyday.

For every time I've answered your questions with a smile on my face
Please know I'm lying, I need you to push me
To save me from myself.