it hurts when he looks at me like that smacks a scarlet S on my forehead doesn't see I'm broken no, I've got a frayed soul black holes burned through by cigarettes of past lovers from druggards like him I still tug the ashes over my bruised shoulder and my tired heart hardly protests imprisoned in nostalgic melancholy he doesn't know how I fall hard like the disgraced angel how I'm scarred and buried under the blizzard over and over again bleeding into the frost how I try and stop myself from the perpetuating pain from circling down the same track into oblivion gasping for sweet air grasping for the stair handles only to slip even further and I can't. I can’t stop myself. because I crave the rush addicted since the first drag when my lips touched his in naïve affection and the aftermath it’s an apocalypse… I'm sorry if I burned him or you my fingertips my warmth my love it's a raging fire desperate for oxygen I hold on tight and let go fast I'm sorry in advance