My ways of affection have never been conventional.
Even when I was little,
I used to bite my brother to show him that I loved him.
I will never be that type of girl,
the one that says, ‘You’re hair looks good today’
But rather
I will be the girl that
lightly touches your hair and smiles.
I will rarely say, ‘You look good today’
But I will tug the collar of your shirt because it looks good on you.
Us holding hands will be rare,
But I will lightly graze my nails on your palms like spreading fire.
We will never kiss in public,
I’ll nuzzle my head into your chest though,
I may even nuzzle my nose against your hair and hug you.
I won’t be the one to say ‘I love you’ first,
And even if you say it first,
It’ll take me a very, very long time to say it back
Days,
Weeks,
Or
Months even.
And when I do say ‘I love you’ for the first time,
It won’t be what you expect
It’ll be a ‘You’re such a ******’
Or a ‘I really like being around you’.
I hope you take the time to learn these things,
I hope you give me a chance despite them.”