Why can't you be more like your younger sister?
Why can't you do better?
Why can't you get straight A's while she can?
Why do you always bring disgrace to this family?

My answer?
Because I'm not her
Because this is my maximum capacity
Because this is the best I can do
I never meant to be a disgrace

I'm sorry okay?
I'm sorry if I can't satisfy your expectations
I'm sorry she'll always be the one you're proud of
I'm sorry if I'm only a shadow compared to her
I'm sorry if I was a mistake

You always use her as a basis to set the bars
You always compare her to me
You always tell me that you treat us equally but act otherwise
You always praise her and insult me

So what if I can't satisfy you?
So what if I'm not perfect?
So what if this is the best i can do?
So what if SHE'S your favorite?

Accept me
I'm begging for your love
I'm broken, can't you see?
I'm crying here in the corner and yet you still praise her
I'm suffocating to give my best and you tell me it's still not enough

Do i have to beg?
Do i have to kneel down in front of you?
Do i have to act pitiful just to receive your love?
Do i have to be like her just to see you smile at me?

But what if I cant?
Will you spit me out? Be disgusted in me? Hate me? Disown me?
All because SHE'S your favorite child?