I try so hard
To help you
See Christ
By going to church
But you keep lying
And making me cry
And I don't know
If it's worth it anymore.
Maybe you aren't elect.
Maybe you don't care enough.
I cried again today
Because of you.
If you cared
Wouldn't you ask if I was okay?
I don't know.
Maybe
Maybe not.
All I know
Is when I walk into Heaven,
I want to be holding your hand.
One more adventure together.
But you don't care.

I spent years
Convincing myself that you
Were my mission.
God wanted me to help you to him.
But maybe I was wrong.
Because you have made me cry
And hate
And scream
Like I never used to.
I can't go on a vacation without worrying about you.
Because of you
I can't sleep sometimes.
And I am so tired of it.
I just want what's best for you.
But you don't even know.
I can't tell you how much you hurt me,
Because I'm afraid then you would leave.
I love you so much.
I love you so much.
Why can't you do this one thing for me?

Maybe it was never meant to be.
No more adventures for us.
I'm done.