Heaven reaches upon me, wanting to lift my life of heavy burdens
A life of victimless crimes, that are hidden behind my curtains
Curtains closed so tightly, that God is the only one able to see

I only punish myself, through the action of self created hurt
Hurt that I cannot hide, which keeps me trapped within myself
Contemplating my life to break through this barrier, leads to confusion

Trying understand, if I brought this upon myself, why can't I change it
When I come to my own reasoning my thoughts then become delusional
I try to turn to God only to get angry at him, to ask why do you punish me

Afraid of my own thoughts, afraid of life, and afraid of death
I only find myself caught in a vicious circle of destruction