I keep letting ideas of a poem I plan on writing about god slip out of my mind without being written down. I keep feeling sick again and I've long since forgotten how to deal with it. I read today that anti-depressants are changing the way that our culture is evolving. I keep feeling like my head's about to explode and I can't remember the code to stop the countdown. Which wires to pull. Have I ever really known? I keep allowing thoughts of her to keep me from getting proper sleep. I keep washing my bedding because at night I feel like I'm being bitten by fleas. I'm awash in thoughts of social constructs and god, and yet, I can't even pinpoint what it is that I believe.